I have been pondering life a fair bit. Thinking about where I want to be in 5 years, 10 years, 20 years. etc. What I want out of my life, my marriage, for my children, work, etc. But what really has me thinking is my health. I recently was told that I have a mild case of Polycystic Ovarian Disorder, after a few nasty painful periods and a night of craqzy pain. With this there are potential complications, diabetes, early menopause, difficult conception, painful or not excistant periods. And of course, my nemisis, hard to control weight gain and loss. As if I already do not have a hardtime with this, lets just throw another hoop to jump through. So, here is my current mission, to become healthier, in better shape to become a new slimmer shape.
I have no desire to be a size 6 or to wear a bikini. I just want to feel better in a pair of pants and to be able to chase my kiddos up the stairs and not need an oxygen tank to breath after. I want regulare periods and to not hemorage with my periods.
Being that I have no drive to become so food conscious that I loss my joy for food and eating, I am making small, smart changes. SO things like, I am making sure I am eating something in the morning, even if it is just a yogurt, and I am snacking. Not lots but just enough to keep me from binging at supper and filling my face after dinner before bed. I ahve decided I am not giving up my coffee or creamer, just drinking other things too. Only one or 2 cups a day. And instead of ice cream, whenever i want it, I am eating frizen mango with actually has a similar consistency to it and is just as sweet. Small things.
I have also made a commitment to exercise, so far I have been walking more, wearing Jane alot and I have done 2 days of Jillian Micheal's 30 Day Shred. And let me say, she is one tough BITCH!!! After Tuesday's workout I almost threw the DVD away, I was tired and sore and frankly scared. I have not worked that hard since natural labour with Jane. So after limping around yesterday and this morning, I tackled it again. And you know what, she was not so scary. I do not hurt as much and I actually feel really good and energized. Maybe there is something to this exercise. I am really encouraged by this. SO my goal is to do Jillian, atleast, every second day and do something athletic the other days. I would also like to be able to do 2 workouts a day soon. Work my way up to it!
Wish me luck!
Signed,
Not afraid!
Thursday, September 8, 2011
Wednesday, July 6, 2011
Been a long time!!
It has been a long, long time! Wow! A lot has happened, lost a good friend, gained some new ones. Our baby is 1 and a half and our oldest is starting kindergarten in a few months, and Ada our middle monkey goes to pre-school! Cannot believe we have a 5,3 and 1 year old!
As much as I am thinking that we need a little squishy baby in the house again, I am loving this stage we are at! Evan is so funny, you never know what is going to come out of his mouth, Ada is trying to figure out how she fits, so it is often Dr. Jeckle and Mr. Hyde, and Jane is hilarious, the smiles and looks keep my laughing all day. Though she is 17 months, she still LOVES her milk, she comes up to me, climbs up, assumes the position and smacks my shirt to signal she needs some `happy`juice. I call it that because if she does not fall asleep nursing, she finishes smiling. She is so affectionate and sweet, but don`t let that fool you, she can hold her own against her brother and sister!
I am really trying to focus on my family, my kids mostly! I want to make the most of our time and make lots of memories! I find this harder being that I am on my own a lot, but I am trying. A friend had once told me that a parents job is to show their children the world. And another one said she has wished she had taken the chance to teach her kids instead of yell. With both of these said, I really believe that we are a product of our environment, especially when it comes to our parenting styles. I love my mom and dad to bits! But both worked really hard to support our family, and take care of us. So with that there was not always a lot of extra time, patience and (with 3 growing girls) not a lot of extra money. So no extra programing, only a few family vacations and so forth. Since Larry and I have the sme amount of children, quite a few of the traits carried over...................oops! But I am doing my best to change it! This past weekend we camped in the back yard, it was so much fun, the kids and Larry got a great sleep, I not so much, but they all woke up late and ssssooooo well rested. And I got to drink a cup of coffee, eat some cold pizza and read my book on the deck, for an hour before anyone else woke up! It was a much needed beautiful quiet morning. So nice!
I am planning a summer of memory making! We are going camping the last week of July with my girlfriend and her boys, a trip to the Devonikon Gardens, Jurassic Forest, the Zoo, hopefully the Calgary Zoo too and Drumhellar (as a whole family venture), these are my summer goals, with pictures gallore and lots of notes taken so I can beat the memories in. Just kidding!
Wish me luck!
Signed.
Setting Sail for Adventure!!
As much as I am thinking that we need a little squishy baby in the house again, I am loving this stage we are at! Evan is so funny, you never know what is going to come out of his mouth, Ada is trying to figure out how she fits, so it is often Dr. Jeckle and Mr. Hyde, and Jane is hilarious, the smiles and looks keep my laughing all day. Though she is 17 months, she still LOVES her milk, she comes up to me, climbs up, assumes the position and smacks my shirt to signal she needs some `happy`juice. I call it that because if she does not fall asleep nursing, she finishes smiling. She is so affectionate and sweet, but don`t let that fool you, she can hold her own against her brother and sister!
I am really trying to focus on my family, my kids mostly! I want to make the most of our time and make lots of memories! I find this harder being that I am on my own a lot, but I am trying. A friend had once told me that a parents job is to show their children the world. And another one said she has wished she had taken the chance to teach her kids instead of yell. With both of these said, I really believe that we are a product of our environment, especially when it comes to our parenting styles. I love my mom and dad to bits! But both worked really hard to support our family, and take care of us. So with that there was not always a lot of extra time, patience and (with 3 growing girls) not a lot of extra money. So no extra programing, only a few family vacations and so forth. Since Larry and I have the sme amount of children, quite a few of the traits carried over...................oops! But I am doing my best to change it! This past weekend we camped in the back yard, it was so much fun, the kids and Larry got a great sleep, I not so much, but they all woke up late and ssssooooo well rested. And I got to drink a cup of coffee, eat some cold pizza and read my book on the deck, for an hour before anyone else woke up! It was a much needed beautiful quiet morning. So nice!
I am planning a summer of memory making! We are going camping the last week of July with my girlfriend and her boys, a trip to the Devonikon Gardens, Jurassic Forest, the Zoo, hopefully the Calgary Zoo too and Drumhellar (as a whole family venture), these are my summer goals, with pictures gallore and lots of notes taken so I can beat the memories in. Just kidding!
Wish me luck!
Signed.
Setting Sail for Adventure!!
Wednesday, August 18, 2010
What if......
What if is a game I play all the time. Sometimes with people but mostly with myself. Sometimes it is fun, but more often then not it is not. I have a tendency to worry all the time, about everything, from what I feed my kids to how much toilet paper is. I know, I am a worry wart, but I have been my whole life. For as far back as I can remember.
Right now, at this moment I am worrying about Ada's pending appointment with Dr. Kadoo, a pediatric urologist. Since Ada has been having chronic kidney infections, and because of her history with Renal Reflux this has become a concern. In January she was cleared of the Renal Reflux, her UCVG study came back normal. They told us there may be a chance that she be more prone to infection, but to not worry about it. So we kind of put it out of our mind.
Then in January, she woke with a fever and complained that her tummy hurt. So I took her in, after a bit of a fight they tested her urine and it came back normal. So they figured a virus. Then in March the same but her urine came back with evidence of an infection, so they treated her and told me not to worry, as we knew this was a possibility. But we figured we would do all we could do, so we started potty training, which went really, really well. She caught on right away. Ya for us!!!! But we knew because she is STUBBORN with a capital S, that not to push it, so we had set backs, but kept our patience and it has gotten better. Another cause of UTI's in little girls is constipation, so we upped fiber and encouraged her to go wherever and whenever she had to, even if I meant I was scrubbing poop out of panties. We just made sure she had a bath every night or at least she was cleaned well everyday. Wipe front to back, etc.
Then June hit, boy what a shitty month. An infection the whole month. Man, that BITCH would not die. It was like every 2 weeks like F*&^*%g clock work, off the antibiotics for 3 days and she was back, with a vengeance. Ada had woken with a high fever, over 40C she looked like death. Not to make light of death, but it was scary how sick and lifeless she looked. But not sure if it was an UTI or maybe something else I waited to take her in, as it was a Friday. I thought for sure it had to be something else, she had been so healthy for a couple of months. But it just got worse and worse. She started crying every time she had to pee and she did not eat. She said her tummy really hurt. And her fever did not go away. So Monday morning I called the pediatrician right away and caught shit from one of the nurses for not taking her in as soon as the fever came. I mean, REALLY, as if I did not feel shitty enough. Oy! Anyway, they told me what I already knew,that they had to cath her. So Ada having a memory like a horse starts freaking out, because she remembered being restrained last time. And in her freak out, she pees on the nurse, not once but 3 times. So being the smarty mommy that I am, I sit her up to pee in the cath tray. I know not as pristine as they like urine samples but it was as good as we were going to get. Her urine tested positive for infection right away, So they sent us with a prescription and told me they would call when they got the cultures back. In a couple of days they called back and it was a kidney infection, so to keep with the prescription and they would see us in a month for a follow up. So 10 days is pretty standard for meds, and we finished on a Tuesday, we went camping on Friday. She puked, we went home. She woke up Saturday morning with a fever, but otherwise in good spirits, so I give her some Advil and we head back out to the campground to see my parents. SO I had given her the Advil at 5:30 in the morning and but 9:30 the fever was back, it did not even hold it off for the promised 6 hrs. So I gave her a dose of Tylenol and we girls went for a nap. We woke up at 1:30 and it was back again, so I gave her another dose of Tylenol and we went on out way. Which in hind sight was stupid, I just should have taken her in then, but I was hopeful. But by 3:30 she looked like death again. And almost worse then before, so I abandon my son with my parents, and took Ada into the hospital. Not the Stollery which I would have normally done, but Stony, thinking that because she could use the toilet, that she would pee in a cup, they would dip it, give her some meds tell us to follow up with our doctor and send us on our way. Instead, we waited 7 hours to be seen, and it was not until she puked and her fever had gone up again that they brought us back, and then they tortured her (I know not their intention) for 2 hours before they gave her anything for her fever, then they gave her some IV meds and sent us home just to come back in 24 hrs for more IV meds. In truth I know they were doing the best they could for her with the knowledge that they had and the hurt both physically and emotionally was not intended. But seeingyour little girl calling for you to get them off of her and to make them stop does not leave your mind very easily. Even almost 2 months later I still pops in once and a while. But even with all the stress and the fear that surrounded her, she still kissed her little sister as we all snuggled into that little hospital bed, and told me that she was okay in her small weak little voice.
After some discussion the next day with her pediatrician we decided to cancel the IV meds and take a slightly less aggressive approach until we knew exactly what kind of bugs we were dealing with, we did not want to help with drug resistance. So we waited for the call again to tell us what the cultures said, they came back resistant to the meds, so a change was ordered and we got instructions for a another 10 day stretch. So we finished on a Wednesday this time and sure enough by Friday the fever was back and so was the puking and this time big time dehydration. So luckily we could get in with the Dr that day, but this time she let Ada pee in a cup this time and it came back VERY infected. So, back to square one, we got some new fancy last resort antibiotics and was told we had to start to dig deeper. So cue Dr. Kadoo and the Scary DSMA Screen....
So now Ada is on a strong daily meds that will hopefully keep the bugs at bay until we know what is going on. We see Dr. Kadoo tomorrow to decide what to do next and we have the Scary DSMA Screen in October.
I am scared because we are so in the dark. I am scared because I am afraid she will have bad news for us at our appointment, that our worse case scenario is going to come true and she will be in kidney failure and need dialysis and a transplant. Mostly, more than anything else, I am afraid I am going to loose my baby.
I know these are big what ifs and that I am probably over reacting, but I can not help it.
Signing,
What if....Queen
Right now, at this moment I am worrying about Ada's pending appointment with Dr. Kadoo, a pediatric urologist. Since Ada has been having chronic kidney infections, and because of her history with Renal Reflux this has become a concern. In January she was cleared of the Renal Reflux, her UCVG study came back normal. They told us there may be a chance that she be more prone to infection, but to not worry about it. So we kind of put it out of our mind.
Then in January, she woke with a fever and complained that her tummy hurt. So I took her in, after a bit of a fight they tested her urine and it came back normal. So they figured a virus. Then in March the same but her urine came back with evidence of an infection, so they treated her and told me not to worry, as we knew this was a possibility. But we figured we would do all we could do, so we started potty training, which went really, really well. She caught on right away. Ya for us!!!! But we knew because she is STUBBORN with a capital S, that not to push it, so we had set backs, but kept our patience and it has gotten better. Another cause of UTI's in little girls is constipation, so we upped fiber and encouraged her to go wherever and whenever she had to, even if I meant I was scrubbing poop out of panties. We just made sure she had a bath every night or at least she was cleaned well everyday. Wipe front to back, etc.
Then June hit, boy what a shitty month. An infection the whole month. Man, that BITCH would not die. It was like every 2 weeks like F*&^*%g clock work, off the antibiotics for 3 days and she was back, with a vengeance. Ada had woken with a high fever, over 40C she looked like death. Not to make light of death, but it was scary how sick and lifeless she looked. But not sure if it was an UTI or maybe something else I waited to take her in, as it was a Friday. I thought for sure it had to be something else, she had been so healthy for a couple of months. But it just got worse and worse. She started crying every time she had to pee and she did not eat. She said her tummy really hurt. And her fever did not go away. So Monday morning I called the pediatrician right away and caught shit from one of the nurses for not taking her in as soon as the fever came. I mean, REALLY, as if I did not feel shitty enough. Oy! Anyway, they told me what I already knew,that they had to cath her. So Ada having a memory like a horse starts freaking out, because she remembered being restrained last time. And in her freak out, she pees on the nurse, not once but 3 times. So being the smarty mommy that I am, I sit her up to pee in the cath tray. I know not as pristine as they like urine samples but it was as good as we were going to get. Her urine tested positive for infection right away, So they sent us with a prescription and told me they would call when they got the cultures back. In a couple of days they called back and it was a kidney infection, so to keep with the prescription and they would see us in a month for a follow up. So 10 days is pretty standard for meds, and we finished on a Tuesday, we went camping on Friday. She puked, we went home. She woke up Saturday morning with a fever, but otherwise in good spirits, so I give her some Advil and we head back out to the campground to see my parents. SO I had given her the Advil at 5:30 in the morning and but 9:30 the fever was back, it did not even hold it off for the promised 6 hrs. So I gave her a dose of Tylenol and we girls went for a nap. We woke up at 1:30 and it was back again, so I gave her another dose of Tylenol and we went on out way. Which in hind sight was stupid, I just should have taken her in then, but I was hopeful. But by 3:30 she looked like death again. And almost worse then before, so I abandon my son with my parents, and took Ada into the hospital. Not the Stollery which I would have normally done, but Stony, thinking that because she could use the toilet, that she would pee in a cup, they would dip it, give her some meds tell us to follow up with our doctor and send us on our way. Instead, we waited 7 hours to be seen, and it was not until she puked and her fever had gone up again that they brought us back, and then they tortured her (I know not their intention) for 2 hours before they gave her anything for her fever, then they gave her some IV meds and sent us home just to come back in 24 hrs for more IV meds. In truth I know they were doing the best they could for her with the knowledge that they had and the hurt both physically and emotionally was not intended. But seeingyour little girl calling for you to get them off of her and to make them stop does not leave your mind very easily. Even almost 2 months later I still pops in once and a while. But even with all the stress and the fear that surrounded her, she still kissed her little sister as we all snuggled into that little hospital bed, and told me that she was okay in her small weak little voice.
After some discussion the next day with her pediatrician we decided to cancel the IV meds and take a slightly less aggressive approach until we knew exactly what kind of bugs we were dealing with, we did not want to help with drug resistance. So we waited for the call again to tell us what the cultures said, they came back resistant to the meds, so a change was ordered and we got instructions for a another 10 day stretch. So we finished on a Wednesday this time and sure enough by Friday the fever was back and so was the puking and this time big time dehydration. So luckily we could get in with the Dr that day, but this time she let Ada pee in a cup this time and it came back VERY infected. So, back to square one, we got some new fancy last resort antibiotics and was told we had to start to dig deeper. So cue Dr. Kadoo and the Scary DSMA Screen....
So now Ada is on a strong daily meds that will hopefully keep the bugs at bay until we know what is going on. We see Dr. Kadoo tomorrow to decide what to do next and we have the Scary DSMA Screen in October.
I am scared because we are so in the dark. I am scared because I am afraid she will have bad news for us at our appointment, that our worse case scenario is going to come true and she will be in kidney failure and need dialysis and a transplant. Mostly, more than anything else, I am afraid I am going to loose my baby.
I know these are big what ifs and that I am probably over reacting, but I can not help it.
Signing,
What if....Queen
Wednesday, April 28, 2010
Sunday, April 25, 2010
Skinny-Minis
Would you have guessed that I am going to talk about one of the greatest products that I as a mom LOVE, probably not, eh?
Skinny-minis are a great creation of a company called Mabel's Labels. They are long and skinny and fit in just about anything. They are dishwasher and microwave safe, so cute. A great way to keep your Kleen Kanteen safe and with you.
www.mabel.ca
Skinny-minis are a great creation of a company called Mabel's Labels. They are long and skinny and fit in just about anything. They are dishwasher and microwave safe, so cute. A great way to keep your Kleen Kanteen safe and with you.
www.mabel.ca
Meet sweet Baby Jane....
I would like to introduce our newest addition. Jane Edith Whalen, born Tuesday, March 2, 2010 @ 3:41 am. She weighed 9lbs 2 oz and was 20.5 inches long. She came fast and furiously in 3 hours after my waters broke. She came a week late just to share her mom's birthday. We could not be happier!
Soon to come her birth story, then I will share her siblings stories too. I think it is finally time to share them.
Signed,
Yeah, another girl!!
Soon to come her birth story, then I will share her siblings stories too. I think it is finally time to share them.
Signed,
Yeah, another girl!!
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