I am not sure if I really have anything I want to say....... well. nothing really important I guess.

Well, I guess I can talk about how I have decided that I REALLY NEED to LOSE WEIGHT!!!!!! I mean really. I have never been this heavy, except when I was pregnant, but even than it was not okay. I need to lose 60 lbs to be at the high end of a healthy weight for someone my height. So I need to do it. Now!! I really hate that I am winded by the time I get to the top of the stairs. I hate how I look in the mirror, and I hate how Larry looks at me. I mean he does not look at me in a bad way, but more indifferently. I want him to look at me and say/think, "Damn she looks good," and then want to rip off my clothes. Granted I would hope he would have some self control, but I want him to not be able to keep his hands off of me. I says he loves me just the way I am, but I want him to want me to better myself. I guess if that makes sense at all.

So this is my confession time:

"Hello, my name is Jennifer and I have a weight problem,
I currently weigh 252 lbs and I need to lose 60 lbs to be healthy.
My measurements are as follows; bust: 44 inches, waist 47 inches and
hips 51 inches. My goes is to lose 20lbs (safely) but May 24, 2009"

I really need to do this. I hope I can lose most if not all the 60lbs in a year. Cross my fingers!

Wish me luck.

Signed,

Coming clean...

I sometimes wonder.....

I sometimes wonder why people act the way they do. I do not really have any specific example, I just wonder.....

I wonder why some people have this sense of entitlement, like they should have everything handed to them, or they deserve everything just for being alive.

I wonder why some people feel their life events are more significant or important than mine. Why can't we celebrate every one's equally?

I wonder why some people think that it is okay to judge my parenting, marriage, life choices, etc.

I wonder why I HAVE to be happy for someone when their poor life choices have gotten them into their situation, but then someone bails them out. And then it is okay for them to tell me that my good life choices have gotten me things I do not deserve.

OR

I have to down play the good in my life so that someone who has not made good choices does not feel bad.

Anyway, Just preponderances. Not saying that I am not guilty of any of the above, this was just on my mind.

Signed,

Just wondering...