Time for a change.

I have been pondering life a fair bit. Thinking about where I want to be in 5 years, 10 years, 20 years. etc. What I want out of my life, my marriage, for my children, work, etc. But what really has me thinking is my health. I recently was told that I have a mild case of Polycystic Ovarian Disorder, after a few nasty painful periods and a night of craqzy pain. With this there are potential complications, diabetes, early menopause, difficult conception, painful or not excistant periods. And of course, my nemisis, hard to control weight gain and loss. As if I already do not have a hardtime with this, lets just throw another hoop to jump through. So, here is my current mission, to become healthier, in better shape to become a new slimmer shape.

I have no desire to be a size 6 or to wear a bikini. I just want to feel better in a pair of pants and to be able to chase my kiddos up the stairs and not need an oxygen tank to breath after. I want regulare periods and to not hemorage with my periods.

Being that I have no drive to become so food conscious that I loss my joy for food and eating, I am making small, smart changes. SO things like, I am making sure I am eating something in the morning, even if it is just a yogurt, and I am snacking. Not lots but just enough to keep me from binging at supper and filling my face after dinner before bed. I ahve decided I am not giving up my coffee or creamer, just drinking other things too. Only one or 2 cups a day. And instead of ice cream, whenever i want it, I am eating frizen mango with actually has a similar consistency to it and is just as sweet. Small things.

I have also made a commitment to exercise, so far I have been walking more, wearing Jane alot and I have done 2 days of Jillian Micheal's 30 Day Shred. And let me say, she is one tough BITCH!!! After Tuesday's workout I almost threw the DVD away, I was tired and sore and frankly scared. I have not worked that hard since natural labour with Jane. So after limping around yesterday and this morning, I tackled it again. And you know what, she was not so scary. I do not hurt as much and I actually feel really good and energized. Maybe there is something to this exercise. I am really encouraged by this. SO my goal is to do Jillian, atleast, every second day and do something athletic the other days. I would also like to be able to do 2 workouts a day soon. Work my way up to it!

Wish me luck!

Signed,

Not afraid!