I have to apologize.......

I have to apologize, in a past blog rant I may have hurt a friend's feelings. It was not my intention, but I may have. I was feeling sorry for myself and got a little oversensitive. Everyone is entitled to opinions and to give advice (when asked for). I have to realize that I may not always know best and take constructive criticism when it is offered.

Signed,

I am sorry and hope we can still be friends....

Summer is here!!!! Finally.........

Summer is here, and with that she has brought the usual summer joys!!! Sweat, snot and grumpiness. The sweat because of the heat and our unusually hot house. The snot because of allergies and reflux and the grumpiness because it is hot and no one is sleeping well because it is hot. Being that Evan has not nursed for a while I had forgotten that having a baby on you all the time can make you very warm and for me, rivals pregnancy. A few of my friends are at the very end of their pregnancies and can't wait to be done. Can't say I blame them with our 30 degrees C and above temperatures. But we wish happy, healthly, safe and quick labour and deliveries for them. (And of course big, beautiful, happy and healthy babies)

Another thing summer brings is chaos, there is always something to do or a place to be, but that is half the fun. I just hope our house sells soon, and we get into the other one so I can buy a new vehicle with A/C. In my attempts to be stubborn and get what I want I bought my present car too quickly and forfitted the A/C. I will one day learn to be patient.

I am looking forward to a wonderful summer and connecting with great friends.


Signed,
Trying to keep cool!!!

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We survived!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

So we survived Calgary. I came home with the two kids I left with and most of my sanity. WHEW!!!!! I have to be honest I was really scared. There were a few nervous moments and a few break downs but we did it. It really gave me a sense of accomplishment. I can do it. Mind you, it is not something I would like to do regularily, but I could do it again.

The Zoo was a lot of fun, as was visiting everyone, but again a lot to cram into 3 and a half days.

YEA!!!!!!

Signed,

I am GLAD to be home!!

It has been some time..........

I know it has been a while, but I have been busy. Really!! I have, we have had 4 more showings since my last blog and I have been slowly working on the house.Kind of anyway. Okay! Okay, I have been thinking about working on the house. You got it out of me. Not much can be done when I have little ones running around and I have been trying to get the laundry done.

To tell the truth I have been feeling sorry for myself and letting it get in the way of life. We really have had a lot going on, in trying to sell the house, have some sort of a life and giving my children the attention they deserve I have been lacking on sleep. I go to bed late and wake up early, I get bitchy and snarly. I take everything out on my husband instead of dealing with the people that actually make me mad and I am having a hard time counting to 10 instead of losing it when my adorably, too-smart-for-his-own-good, son tries my patience. So then I can't sleep again because I feel bad for yelling and putting him in a time out when I was the one that really needed it. Mommy's guilt is a nasty thing. Just when I think I am making head way, and I might have coping down, someone makes a comment or I have a thought and it is all shot to hell. WTF!! I can't win.

So since I feel that I have some experience with feeling guilty, tired, overwhelmed and useless, I feel that I may be qualified enough to give some advice. A friend from my Mom's group is having some anxiety about parenting 2 children, one being a newborn (which we all know require a lot of extra attention and love) who wants only her mommy at night ( my daughter being an excellent example of this), I felt that when she asked that it would be fine to tell her I understand and offer some advice on how to deal. I mean Larry worked nights at the beginning and is gone a lot with his job, so I am left alone a lot too. And really with a nursing baby he can only do and understand so much anyway. Well, I offer my advice, standard stuff like forget the house work, forget the routine (babies often pick there own anyway) and tell her that I am here to help, yada,yada,yada......

Well, not long after another mother replies, gives her advice, great. The more the merrier. ( We really do have a great support system with eachother in our group) She seemed to pick my advice and point out that getting rid of the routine will only work if the baby wants the routine gone. Really now, I am all for letting baby be the boss, both my kids still are the boss and I fear that will never change, but really a routine is only good if it makes everyones life easier and less stressful. If it is creating more stress than it needs to take flight somewhere else. Being that I am running on little sleep and am often left questioning my own parenting abilities I take offense. I know that I am over tired and probably reading more into it than there is, but I can't help but be angry and bitter. And this as a result is causing more sleep loss. Oh well.

So instead of sleeping and dreaming I am left with a burnign hole in my stomach and a weight on my chest. Feels pretty awful.

We are also off to Calgary today, just the kids and I, wish us luck!!!

Bon Voyage!!!

Signed,

Wish I did not feel compelled to help people.

At Last.........

I am very happy to say that the house is listed. YEA!! We have even had our first showing. I hope it went well. Let's see, I have not, yet, finished touching up the baseboards and casing, nor have I painted the office. Larry has yet to finish putting in the floor joints and putitng in the baseboards in the closets. Speaking of closets, I have to finish painting the closet doors. This never ending. I am hoping that the people who came to look today will decide that they want to put in an offer, AS IS, that would be sweet. Now I really should get to finishing some laundry so the laundry rooms floor will magically appear.

Cross your fingers.

Signed,
Can't wait to be out of here.